I hate the holidays. I can't wait for Christmas to be over with. Christmas is suppose to be a time for family to be together.

Some days I have hope that my H and I will get back together and sometimes I don't. Today is a don't day. I am trying not to think about him, but it is so hard. He is out living his life and I am stuck here in mine. I know it's my choice.


H: 49
W: 47
D: 6
M: 6 1/2 yrs
H: Bomb #1 6-2010
H: Bomb #2 7-2011
H: Separated: 7-11-11
Reconciling 2-2012
Separated: 1-31-15 (I asked him to move out)