Where to next?

[kat727]

Don't take it back. Gabe is a big boy. He can take responsibility for stuff so let him.

I will admit this to you as it might make you feel better. I know I am pretty smart and I feel a good parent. However when I get to thinking about the big picture of my life it can truly scare the he!! out of me. It falls on me to make things happen and work. I can't count on some sort of intervention either through meeting someone or winning the lottery to get me to where I want to be. Sure those things could happen but I can't count on it. I have to be the one that moves in the direction I want to go.

So if you want to see if your life with Gabe around in the future, take those steps to make it happen. What are those steps you may ask? First and most importantly, be honest with your self about what you want in this life. Secondly write down what is holding you back. Now rather than trying to take charge of all of that at once, look at the small things that you can do to put things in place.

Now do me the next favor and answer this question: Do you want Gabe in your life? Don't think just yes or no. Do you love him? yes or no? Does he love you? yes or no. don't hesitate on a single one. go with your gut. You may surprise yourself.

Hang in there. Have faith.

kat