Hi again. Can I just say, as one of the wordiest people on this forum myself, that you have a remarkable retention of detail?
I don't know if you noticed that I posted in the middle of your journals back there, but I had some questions for you. I want to add another.
When you were DBing before, did you ever get the message that other people's opinions are not always helpful or relevant? You're seeking out and absorbing other people to build up your opinion that you two are right for each other and should be together, and I think you might want to consider attaching less importance to what they say. You believe he's right for you. Why? You believe you're right for him. Why? Outside friends just want you to be happy and they'll say what they think will make you happy. If you broke up and were sad, the same people would be saying he wasn't right for you, move on. Listen to yourself and listen to him. Your desire for him right now looks like a snowball rolling down a mountain, gathering up the pinecones of friends' opinions to build up its momentum.
So if you get a chance, let me know if the questions I asked above sparked any thoughts. I may not have been gently wording them, and I hope you take them as food for thought rather than being judgmental.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.