12/6 (Tuesday)
Texting about when we are going to go to the Christmas thing since we still had tickets. We are going to talk to his friend from church and see when she and her daughters can go. The oldest will be home from college soon. I knew I would see her at Bible Study on Wednesday and make a mental note to talk to her.

I threw out some dates, and RC responded with what worked. At first he said they were all fine, and then he said “Not the 31st” I didn’t ask why that date didn’t work, because my gut told me immediately why. He probably had something planned with his lady friend for that weekend – just a hunch. After all he hadn’t seen her since mid-November.

12/7 (Wednesday)
I went to Bible Study again and I talked to our friend from church. We confirmed that Saturday, 12/17 worked for everyone and we’d go to the Christmas thing then.

During Bible Study, I received a text from RC “You at church?” I quietly responded “Yes.” Then when we were about to start choir practice I responded again “Can I catch up with you after choir practice?” He responded “OK”

I called him on the way home from church. He just wanted to tell me about some credit card scam thing and wanted to warn me about it. It was really not a big thing at all. That conversation led to more stuff and we talked on the phone for about 45 minutes, way past the time it took me to get home. I sat in the driveway at my house just talking.

(Friends started telling me…I think he looks for excuses to talk to you….still trying not to read more into this than there could be….)


12/8 (Thursday)

RC normally goes to the Rec Center to work out on Tuesday & Thursday nights. I have been losing a little weight and need to tone, so we made arrangements for me to meet him there sometimes. He could show me how to use the machines and keep me motivated. I was still trying to see this as a friend thing. If I could have someone to keep me at it, then why not. If it’s something more, then that’s all the better – more time to flash my charm on him!!

So we arranged for him to go a little later than usual and I would meet him there.

We had a blast. I am so clumsy at times and that made for a lot of fun with a few things. We worked out on the machines and when we were done, he walked us into the gym and we watched volleyball. We stood there and talked for a long time.

When we were done, he walked me to my car and we talked more. I think we talked for over an hour that night.

12/9 (Friday)
Karaoke night with Kelly and other friends from church. She invited RC but he couldn’t go because he had to work late.

We exchanged some texts through the day. Again fun and light-hearted.

Kelly said, “MAL, friends don’t text all day long like this.” And she laughed. I replied, “Well Kelly, he said we will ALWAYS be friends, and he wanted to see where the thing with his lady friend will go. I see him as a man of his word, so that is all I have to go by right now. I never said he was a smart man though.” Lol

Karaoke was a blast. Kelly had a few too many adult beverages which made for great jokes later that night and through the next several days (including game night at her place the next night).

12/10 (Saturday)
The MAL defense mechanism kicked in again and I told myself to stop playing this game. Take the man at his word. You are friends. You know he is still talking to his lady friend who is 5 hours away. You are probably just filling a need at the local level.

I went for a bike ride. It was lovely. Crisp, breezy, and my cheeks were rosy pink. I rode for over an hour and didn’t get much else done as a result. I had to return home to get ready for game night at Kelly’s. I knew RC would be there like he always is, but I didn’t put any hope in anything for that night.

As I was riding I heard my phone go off. Another text from RC asking me what time I was going to Kelly’s. I responded and then more texts. The usual fun banter. Most of that banter was regarding him purchasing items for civil war re-enacting. He has missed it and will get started again in 2012.

Now if you can imagine a clumsy 47 year old woman trying to ride a bike and text…it’s a scary thought. I had to stop to text each time otherwise I would have injured myself! Lol

When RC arrived at game night later I could tell he got his hair cut – man I love his hair short. Then he took off his coat and I saw that he was wearing my favorite black shirt.

(((Self talk….C’Mon God? Are you kidding me? Is this some cruel joke? You must really have a sense of humor. All I can say is that man was looking very handsome and sexy that night and I couldn’t keep my eyes off of him.)))

Game night was a blast! We joked Kelly a lot about her adult beverages from the night before. Her husband made a few goofs during game night which also made for great jokes that we are still throwing out in Sunday school class now.

When he walked me to my car I told him how handsome he looked. He responded with his modest “yeah yeah” like he usually does. I also made a point of telling him that was my favorite shirt (in case he didn’t remember).


Me 47
Ex H 46
Bomb 9/02
D final 3/04
Ex H now married to OW

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