What else could I have done?

[antlers]

I've owned my mistakes since the beginning of this awful mess. She's owned nothing to this day! I certainly do not hate her...it might be easier for me if I did. But she does hate me. I admit that it still makes me feel bad...even though I know in my heart that I'm not the same person I was in that relationship. I know that i have no control over what she thinks. I want for my feelings about myself to matter more to me than her feelings about me do...how do I get there?