First post, words of wisdom needed

[sunshine76]

Journal:

Definite EA more than likely PA confirmed!!! I just woke up from having a bad dream about my W and I just had a gut feeling so I checked her email which is something I have not done in a couple of months. Well low and behold I find out that she is buying this OW a GPS system and staying with her while she is out of town. She went to visit "family" about a month and a half ago. I asked her if she stayed in the same hotel that we had previously stayed in and she said no that she couldn't remember the name.

I am so effing mad and hurt right now. I think the only reason I am posting is to stop me from throwing my computer. I don't understand this. She has always been honest to a fault and now she is telling all of these lies!!

I feel like such an effing idiot! It's not like she is cheating on me because she did say that she wanted to date other people, but I out and out asked her on several occasions if there was someone else and I could see it in her eyes that she wasn't telling the truth which made me absolutley crazy.

Back to square one. I don't even know what to do at this point. I know, I know go have fun... Well it's 1:33am here and quite frankly all I feel like doing is crying.