Indecision and the affair continues (Part 2)

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Yeah, I know...thanks kml. I think I'm just getting drained and I completely recognize it's terrible timing to lose it. Thanks for responding and trying to keep me sane. (One of my friends said last night, "you can't make it through 5 months of this crap and then lose it now!")

I think OW is probably going out of town with her kids for Christmas. My guess is that her kids are out of town with her husband this week so that's given H and her a chance to be together. (OW and her husband are very rich...grrr) So, I'd love to believe she's really worked up about my H missing Christmas with her...but she is not even divorced yet, so he hasn't met her kids or any of her family yet. H seemed to think it was obvious he'd be home for the holidays.

I was seeing baby steps and H should be home for at least a week over Christmas. I need to have fun with him and make him see there could be a great life with his family. If he can't see that, then we need to be done in January. I guess this pain is making me more and more at peace with that.

I also feel like my 180's and GALing has slipped with being so busy for the holidays, etc. I'm also a little sick and my knee is bothering me...

But, I have an H who is eventually coming home and we will have a nice Christmas. I do know I have a lot to be thankful for.