I know exactly how you feel. I don't post as much on here as I did, and like you it isn't because I don't care about the people here, it is because I don't want to keep thinking about my sitch all the time.
I think I've come to accept that what is done is done, and I am actually ok with it. I have gained so much through the loss of my marriage, and I am thankful for what I have.
I also want my heart to mend. I remind myself that it takes time and I've come a long way in almost a year and I need to celebrate that.
I wish nothing but the best for you V.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤