What else could I have done?

[antlers]

I don't deny that I've contributed to my misery. My happiness shouldn't depend on whether or not I get forgiveness from her. Do you agree?

I realize that it's up to her...there's never been any disagreement with that.

The changes I made were made because I realized that I was wrong, and I needed to make those changes because they needed to be made, period, and for no other reason than that. Regardless of anything else, those changes needed to be made, no matter what.

They weren't made to get her back or to win her forgiveness. They were made because it was wrong to be that way.

I know that.
I realize that, and have realized that for over 3 years now. And that is what happened.

I realize that too...but after the fact, what more could I have done other than what I did?


Damned if I know? I don't want my happiness to depend on something that I have no control over!