Need HOPE & Advice

[purgatory]

I am so proud of you for admitting to your issues and taking steps to work on them! My theory: 'if a pill will fix it, take it!'
Your W told you what she needs: trusting that you are in control of your anger and more consistent behaviors. There's never a guarantee that she'll come back, but you know that she WILL NEVER come back until to get help for your issues- so that should be your focus. It must be really hard to detach, when you've already been gone for a year, and all you want to do is feel like part of the family again.

You've got a long, rough path to walk down... but talking to your C and taking control of your anger are great first steps!