Today is weird. I'm not sad, not happy, not mad...just kinda blah.
My BIL came in town last night and he gave me a great big hug (it felt so good to be hugged). He knows everything that's been going on. In fact, he got mad at his brother for 'giving up' a few months ago- a fight which my H wouldn't talk about. My BIL is on 'team kid'. He knows that us staying together is the best for the boys, but he also wants to support his brother. It's nice to have another face in the house and someone else to talk to- kind of a distraction for both of us.
The weather isn't helping my mood... overcast, drizzly I've also realized that our separate vacations are quickly approaching (they leave the day after Xmas), which also means that my H is going to move out soon- since he said he would towards the middle of January. I really hope that him getting away from me and the house will help him find some peace and start to move beyond the past. I know that I will still have to see him a few times a week when he gets the boys, but it's going to be odd not seeing him everyday in some form or another.
We haven't discussed our mini-separation (for the deployment) papers anymore, although I know that conversation is coming up and I really don't like talking about that stuff.
Just needed to get a few thoughts out of my head.... Hope everyone is prepared for this holiday weekend!
M-31, H-31 T-9, M-7 S-6, s-20mth sep 8/1/11 ILYNILWY 11/29/11 Creating separation papers. Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12 H moves out 1.20.12