MZ, I share your pain. It has been a loooong year. I think of it and still feel the anger, the sadness, the resentment at times, but then I also think of all the opportunities for change that this situation presnted to me and give a prayer of thanks. Our family has made it intact through this year.

I do see that it is true that the fate of the M depends so much on us, the LBS. It is but human nature that we feel the unfairness of it all, that we have to go through not only the part where the WAS wants to leave or has left, but we also have t deal with their ambivalence afterwards, the fog that has not left completely, their grieving the OW, which I believe is subconscious most of the time, and the never ending pain of the memories.

But whatever it is, it must be worth it or we won't be still here.

hey, I hope you will have a good Christmas celebration with your H!


Me:49 H:45 D:12 M:14 T:18
Bomb: 6/26/10
EA: 9/3/10, fizzled out slowly, now ???
11/5/11 Retrouvaille
Finally piecing....
Its peaceful at last, but we got a looong way to go