you are the one that is allowing yourself to be miserable
if she forgives you or not


it is up to her to forgive you or not

the changes you made should have been because of knowing what you did was wrong

not to win her back or to GET her forgiveness
but because it was wrong to be that way

you were wrong
in being wrong you run the risk of losing it all

it doesn't matter how sorry you are after the fact



why are you letting your future happiness rest on if she forgives you or not???