Kind of down yesterday and so far today. im out of town at work and i guess xmas around the corner has alot to do with it. i just dont know what to expect. ive been reading alot of post on here and its nice to know im not the only one upside down. however it does seem like an awful long time for results if any. i feel as if i have learned alot through this ordeal and i beleive im a better person inside and out. i know i did my part in this mess. Im worried about my W im afraid of the person she is becoming. ive told her a few months ago that i feel like she throws me life lines and i grab ahold but she just starts swimming in the opposite direction. she said thats a pretty good analogy. dont know what to think.wish i could get in her head. a friend told her it seems like she wants to hurt me and she replied maybe i do. ouch that doesnt sound like the girl i knew for the last 16yrs.
