Wow, the weather is nasty here today. I've had a few ups and a few downs over the last few days, and thought I'd share / journal, and ask for some advice.
I spoke briefly to my EX yesterday. Well, speak really isn't the right word. I saw that the trailer for The Hobbit was released yesterday. EX and I are both big fans of the Lord of the Rings books and movies. Anyway, since it had been about a week since I talked to her via text message, I sent her an email with the link to the trailer. Didn't say much else, just that i thought she'd enjoy it. She responded that it looked awesome and she couldn't wait to see it. I sent no reply to that email.
Still nothing from her as to when or if she might come by to give the dogs the present she supposedly bought them. I really don't know how to take that, and I guess I'm overanalyzing. On the one hand, maybe she just wants to see the dogs but she can do that anytime. On the other hand, maybe she wants to see me. I kind of see her doing something like asking to come over on Christmas Eve or something because she knows I'll be with my family. I really want to be there when she comes. I'm thinking that if she wants to come during a time I'm not there, then I may say I'm sorry, but I'm super busy and won't be able to get back home to leave a key, or conveniently "forget" to leave a key if she asks in advance. Then I could text her after I was gone and tell her I forgot so she wouldn't make a busted trip.
She has really been trying to avoid me lately. It's not because of anything I've done to upset her...we've had nice conversations lately. I just get the idea that she is either afraid to see me b/c she might still have feelings, or she doesn't want to have to tell new boyfriend that she saw me or lie to him and say she didn't when she did. Either way, she's had chances to see me but hasn't taken advantage of them. Getting her to do that is one of the goals I set with my DB coach.
Now, if she does come over, I intend to be there. I'm not going to do anything but project a happy mood and certainly won't talk about the relationship, etc. The way I see it is this, if she has truly moved on, it won't matter what I do so seeing me won't hurt anything. Second, it could kindle some feelings. I guess also it could turn her off so much that she decides that she never wants to see me again, but I doubt that would happen.
Any thoughts or ideas on this? Any advice is very much appreciated. I need it lol!
