Yesterday I remember something that occured to me when I was about 15 or 16. I might share that some day (both funny and gross). Really haven't thought of that since it happened. But than I started to think about the person I used to be. The one my W feel in love with. I have been asked that here before and TBH could not remember. Yes I was always a jealous guy. But I was unpredictable, funny, and really didn't care about too many things. Just loved to have fun and rarely got angry. Somewhere along the way I became this intense, predictable, angry, worried about everything person. One of W's complaints is that I take everything too seriously. She is right. So I have been looking for some of the old me but only the good parts and leaving the bad parts behind. A 180 for me is to stop worrying too much. I have not control of many things. That would be really good for me and my sanity. I always worried that I would lose everything that I have and thought I could control things. Yet here I am about to lose it all. That is where I am today.
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”
