Getting Better??

[irishblessings]

Happy Holidays to all! I hope everyone has a peaceful, kind, loving Christmas and that the New Year brings light and happiness to everyone who has found themselves on this board.

I have been bound and determined to make this holiday wonderful for my family. XH and OW parade themselves around my son's school and sporting events wearing matching shirts supporting my son and his team. I will admit (and not necessarily proudly) - it irks the "sh*t" out of me that this woman who has barely had 2 or 3 short conversations with my son wears his team shirt with his name on the back. (yes - as I type it I know it is stupid and immature of me to feel this way) They exhibit all kinds of PDA that have all of the parents (and kids for that matter) talking and asking "WTF???" No matter how politely my kids ask for time alone with their father to "rebuild" their relationship - he acts like a petulant child - OW always around. The kids are kind of done right now trying. They are perfunctory at best. I bite my tongue, sometimes til it bleeds:), and change the subject.

Anyway, I know that I am feeling better. These 18 months have certainly been the worst times of my life and I am not at a point where I can see the silver lining in what I've experienced. BUT - I see what XH has become and I know for sure that I would not want to be with this person today. For me, that is progress. I recently read a quote by Dr. Seuss of all people (although it shouldn't surprise me that the words that resonate with me following this unbelievable journey come from a cartoonish individual:) -

"Don't CRY because it's over - SMILE because it happened!"

This may be my new mantra for 2012. I am resolving to transform in the new year. My son will be graduating from high school in the spring and the number of XH/OW encounters will thankfully, greatly diminish. I believe this will help accelerate more healing and will give me the opportunity to open some new doors. It may be time for me to move over to the "surviving" forum. It's not about his MLC anymore and I owe a GREAT deal of gratitude to you all for helping me get through this truly hideous experience.

Merry Christmas and a Blessed New Year to all!