Christmas is almost here. My son will arrive tomorrow.
I am excited beyond words.
The holidays for me have always been a simple time in my heart.
While I always enjoyed the way H's family celebrated Christmas (all out), I also always felt it was a bit over the top and that something was missing.
I have been remembering my roots lately, really relearning what Christmas means to me.
It is about gratitude and peace. Smiles and laughter. Love and salvation.
Sometimes we come here to vent our pain, our frustrations, our fears and our irritations with our MLCer's.
I want to remind everyone, that they may be messes. That they may say and do crazy and even mean things.
They are still human.
They still have feelings. They hurt too. They live with fears. They live with sadness, that is just as real as any that we have.
My STBX will spend this Christmas alone, without our S. While he knows that he will be working and I haven't seen S in months, he still hurts. While this is a consequence to his actions and choices, it is a pain that I don't wish on him.
I am grateful that my S is coming here. I am grateful that STBX is not putting up roadblocks to that.
So one of my Christmas wishes this year is for STBX to have peace and joy. To have a wonderful and belated Christmas with S when he returns home.
I hope that everyone here can find a wish for their MLCer's.
I wish that everyone here, newbies and vets, can find something wonderful and joyous to be grateful for.
Merry Christmas and God Bless Us, Everyone...
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
