I agree with Sunshine. When I was really in the thick of my H illness, especially after he left home, I had many "lows" and only a few "hi's". It is the funk we LBS's find ourselves in. We take on their issues without focusing on ourselves to make us better. I think that is why we suffer so much of the agony, hurt, and pain when they leave or when they give the quintessential ILYBINILWYA speech.
I learned to view the devastation in my M as a wake up call to me. While my H has his own issues to deal with, I cannot help him or myself without truly looking in the mirror and figuring out who I am.
Even now, my backslide has reminded me that I am blessed with a life that I am "allowed" to live. We just need to live it!
You are doing great!
DU
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
