Hey Purgatory, I completely understand what you are saying about being in a funk! Yesterday I was angry and wanted to throw in the towel. Today I am sad and want to beg and plead (not going to, but still...)

I think that you have been doing a really good job of working on bettering yourself. Try to keep reminding yourself that all of the changes that you are making now are going to pay off in the end.

Unfortunately, it has taken getting pretty darn close to losing everything for us to wake up and realize that we need to make some drastic changes in our lives.

I watched a show last night about a women that said that she was thankful for finding out that she had cancer because that is when she really started to live life.

I know it's incredibly difficult, but maybe we should be looking at this as more of a blessing than a curse. I don't know about you, but I was incredibly unhappy with myself and I took life and my W for granted. This has been a huge wake up call and I definetely do not want to make the same mistakes in the future.

Sorry I'm just kind of rambling, but just know that we are here for you.

M:(f) 35
W: 45
3 dogs and 2 cats
T: 9 years
9/30/11 I love you, but I'm not in love with you
OW confirmed 12/23/11