Seems like I am posting for myself, right now. But that's ok. I know everyone is busy. But I really do hope to get everyone's thoughts on my most recent posts.

Shortly after I posted the above, H called me. I was pretty matter of fact and acted disinterested (as advised previously). After asking me how my day was going and getting a short answer and after an awkward silence he cleared his throat. I could tell he was holding back tears. He asked me if I wanted him to drive me to the port. I told him he didn't have to, I was planning to drive myself and leave the car in the parking garage. He said he wanted to. I thought about rejecting him, but then I felt bad and told him that I appreciated his offer and that if he wanted to, that would be great since it would save me money on parking. He agreed and we came up with the time he would stop by. I could tell he wanted to keep talking, but I ended the conversation telling him I neeeded to get back to work and that I would see him in a couple of days.

I feel really bad right now for what I have done. Have I taken this dettaching thing too far. Am I pushing him away just as he is starting to seek me out again? Please help. Thanks!


M:12yr
06/11:IDLYA
07/11:Moves out
08/11:PA disc(began in May)
09/11:Moves w OW
10/11:Breaks up w OW;gets apt
11&12/11: Touchngo w me
1/12: Comes home-PA resumes
2/12: PA disc; PA ends
Today: Piecing