Maybe Gabe doesn't feel like he deserves it. But as you KNOW and everyone else has said, you aren't Gabe and don't have a clue what he is thinking. He is there for you and helps you. He helped with your Mom, he holds you when you cry. He is showing his love for you even if he hasn't said it.

There are things you need and you aren't even letting him know. You have gone through the worst that can happen. I know it is easier said than done but you need to let go of your fear.

Hugs, kat

Me-53(and learning!)
S24, S21, D18, D17
Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory