Woke up at 3 in the morning with a sense of panic. I don't know what I was freaked out about- but all I wanted to do was crawl into the other bed with H and have him tell me that everything is ok... but i didn't, and that made the panic turn to sadness. I really hate the 'down' days. I'm not sure what causes them, I just know they sneak up out of nowhere. Sometimes I'm grateful that I have kids- they give me a reason to get out of bed. Otherwise, I might have stayed there all morning listening to the rain the roof and probably cried- having a pity party for myself.
Trying to find the motivation to get off the computer and clean the floors and get ready for company tonight... it's not working.
H called me this morning and said that his orders are changing again. Someone messed up yesterday and told him he would be going to Bahrain- but that job had already been assigned- Grrrrrrr. Any military persons and/or wives can understand when detailers are being stupid. And to make matters worse- his detailer is out of the office today, possibly all week, so he can't resolve this today So, he's pretty mad/frustrated. I just listened and sympathized with his feelings- this was a 180 for me because normally I would have complained about how this affect my life and got just as upset... He seemed to appreciate just being able to vent without having to take care of my feelings (so I call that a 180 win!)
M-31, H-31 T-9, M-7 S-6, s-20mth sep 8/1/11 ILYNILWY 11/29/11 Creating separation papers. Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12 H moves out 1.20.12
