Oh, and more about me. I'm from Europe originally, but have been in this country for 14 or so years. I have no family here, so my H has been the only family I had, and then came our DS. I also don't have a huge network of friends, and only one of my friends knows about this situation so far. I talked to my MIL the other day, which made my H furious. I know, I saw on the 37 rules list that you shouldn't do that, but I felt like I needed to talk to someone who'd understand, especially since she had gone through separation many years ago. She's been supportive of me and offered her help when needed. I told my H that she is just as much my family as she is hers.
{labug} Yes, I'm trying to be composed in front of my DS. We play and do silly things (something that H didn't really want to do, but that's another story). I don't talk about what's going on in front of him. Though the other day when H was home, he kept wanting to "talk", so DS overheard the distress and asked why H was yelling at me
