{rick89}, this is so hard and it does seem that at times we are da%ned if we do, da^ned if we don't. I've been grappling with similar questions all week with little sleep and lots of mental torment. This morning I've finally come to the realization that I'm trying mentally to control the outcome of this, and I can't. I just can't.

I read just a few minutes ago that swinging from one extreme behavior to another is normal as people change. We are seeking balance and we have to trust that we will find it, maybe just not today.

I can't say it any better than Ad: "detach more so that you can accept your situation and work within it rather than railing against what it is not."


Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss