DBing against OW...?????

[imthemom]

I have been on a mission to GAL so havent had a minute to post since meeting with attorney...

I think it went ok...nothing was signed but we did work out most of the loose ends and get custody and everything down..all except for support..he forgot his paystb so we have to go back to work that out. He agreed to everything we asked. Except when my attorney asked him if he could give me some money for christmas he said no....that didnt surprise me.

I managed to get threw it without crying...until he left, and then my attorney looked at me and said " by the way, you can do soooo much better..hes not that cute...". It made me laugh...
Knowing that eventually me and the boys are going to be ok financially has taken a huge load off...and im feeling a lot stronger today.
H text me this morning saying that he didnt want things to be this way (not speaking) and that he had seen a change in me the last 3 months and he wished i had been that way in our marriage and maybe this wouldnt have happened. He didnt know what he wanted in life but he would always live me.....
No mention of his alcoholism...or A..it is all still my fault..no accountability for his part...i didnt bother to respond. Im so over the selfishness..he doesnt want it this way but he will let my kids wake up to nothing xmas morning???

I feel like im turning a corner here...i feel my self comeing back, i dont want to let him drag me into his hole. He can screw me over all he wants but when it comes to my kids...thats a whooole other ball game...