gunny, I ignored my depression for a long time, too. I felt like I lived in a gray world, devoid of color. Now it has colors and I wish I could share this new person with H.

Only time will tell but no matter what I get to enjoy the new me.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss