Putting it back together, but SSM issues linger

[adinva]

I really think you need to schedule it. I understand the weight of Friday...Saturday...Sunday, uh oh it hasn't happened yet. It's a lot of pressure that I can recall. If it was every Monday like clockwork, good mood or bad, it's every Monday and the other days there's no anxiety that every day you're expecting and then disappointed. She's letting you down every day from halfway through the week until the end of the week now, and she knows it. Make special cocktails and pretend you're at the beach.

Surely she doesn't like you being pouty for going without so long, and you shouldn't suppress your needs completely, and from what you've said, she really is trying to work with you. Try scheduling it on a fixed day at a fixed time.

Also let go of the idea that it always has to be good and not "taking." It's a lot of pressure too to know that if it wasn't very good then you'll be disappointed all week. If she can please you even if she had a bad day or is tired, I think that would make her feel good.

It's rough Accuray. Your situation is far from perfect, but it's not all bad either.