First post, words of wisdom needed

[sunshine76]

Hey CO, it is Kharma indeed. I don't have any big plans this week (mainly just working). I am still struggling with GALing. I am working nights and weekends so it is difficult to join any clubs... since that is when most of them meet. I know that I really need to make more of an effort with this. It seems like GALing should be fun, but I must admit right now it is just one more thing on my to-do list.


Journal:
My w left this morning and although I tried holding back tears I was unsuccessful. I always cry when people leave so it's not like my w was put off by this or thought it was out of the ordinary. She gave me a quick peck on the cheek and I gave her a one armed hug. That's the most physical contact we have had in months. I have zero expectations from our interaction. The peck on the cheek reminded me of a little kid being forced to kiss a relative that they didn't care for all that much

Oh well atleast I get a week to just focus on myself and try to figure out how to get back into the drivers seat of my life. Quite frankly I am tired of feeling like a blindfolded passenger that has no say in where they are going. Maybe it is a good thing that I am getting irritated by this whole situation? Maybe it will help me to begin detaching a little!