Indecision and the affair continues (Part 2)

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Yep, Sunday night felt better...yesterday, while he's in OW's city? Barely any contact. I got a couple text messages. (I was trying to initiate a bit more and be friendlier).

I am traveling for work and a bit under the weather, so I'm not in a great mental frame of mind right now. I think it's hard for me to be alone away from the kids. I'm also doing my self evaluation for my year at work and realizing how badly I've been performing since H started his A. Just makes me angry (on top of everything else making me angry)

I really hope H can follow through and we can go to some counseling. I am sure that will be very hard, but I am tired of this life.

I guess at least H is coming home for the holidays.