When I think about your posts, and things that happen....
I am reminded of being a kid on a Saturday morning. You and your parents had this fun day planned, and then the Washing Machine broke. So your Dad called the repair place to have someone come and take a look at it. The repairman says that he has a few house-calls that day, but might be able to squeeze you in. And he will call if he can come around.
So the "fun" day gets put on hold. I mean, it is the time before cell phones, and portable electronic communication. And the family waits.......
You don't want to venture too far out of range, in fear that you will miss the call from the repairman. You remember doing nothing except waiting. Sometimes the repairman called, sometimes he didn't until MUCH later......
Yet you waited.....
I see you there Tad.....waiting.
So afraid that you will "miss" her call , if you step outside for too long. If you take a step forward.....
And every time you hear her voice on the other end....all the progress YOU have made, gets washed down the drain...You still expect that one thing , or event, to cause her to "wake up"
Sitting and waiting for her to "get over this" or "get through this"....allows you to sit comfortably waiting, for her to realize her mistake, and come back to you, begging and pleading to take her back.....
It allows you to sit back, and tell people that you "did all you could" because you "stood" for her, for however long it happens to be at the time the question arises.
What you won't mention is how you avoided the hard questions...
How you ignored the good stuff that you could have been working through, so that you don't have to be the victim in this.
How you just survived, and have just been waiting for her to realize her mistakes......
You have the world in front of you Tad....yet you have let your marital status "define" who you are.
You have four boys...right ?
You have spent your whole life around the music industry.....right ?
I challenge you to look back through ANY of your threads, where you actually talked about any of that, in a way that DOESN'T reflect a memory of your marriage.....
Dam.....I challenged you to post for a week without talking about your X......and you met the challenge, by not posting AT ALL.....
So once again.....I challenge these questions to you......
