WAW told me she idoesn't want to be married.

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I felt this was some place that I can just vent about my feelings as well as a journal for me.
Well last week was not that great as you have read. Getting the copy of the sep agreement. I didn't have my kids this past weekend so Friday night I caught up with a friend and updated him on my situation. He had some valid points he made to me and believes things can be worked out. She just needs to go through her MLC and we will see what happens in the end.
I have been reading more DR and like I wrote figuring out more things that went wrong and posting them here so they are always available for me to view. I am correcting these and now that I am aware of them I know they will not happen again.

I went and saw another therapist over the summer when my usual one was on vacation. He asked me if I were to get back together with my W, in a few years how will I prevent this from happening again. I told him because I will remember what it was like and it will not ever happen again whether I am with my W or someone else in the future.

Saturday did my first 5K which I ran in 37 minutes then walked back to meet up with my W, D and S to go across the finish line with them. I have pics of this now on my facebook page and I am really proud of myself. Saturday night did a family train ride on the Polar Express. It was a good family night. I was very upbeat and happy go lucky around my W. She was the one that needed to fall into place which she eventually did. Felt really good. After that went to a xmas party at a friends house and had a blast. Haven't seen his family in a very long time. Spoke with a friends fiance about reading a book called Blink. She knows what is going on and her comment to me was I can hope but don't have high expectations. Take what happens and go from there.

Sunday woke up late and was just a relaxing day did a bunch of errands and shopping for my kids, niece and nephew with my brother. Then spoke with someone I used to work with from the toy store. Did a few more errands for me then back to my moms to eat and spent a good bit of the night wrapping presents for kids.

Tonight go to dinner with my neighbor if he is up for it then gym and relax at home. More reading later.