Dishonest and hurtful to you, I'm sure. Let that be her burden to bare. You know the truth... that is what really matters.
Just keep plugging along. Time - it's what will make the pain go away. It's a lengthy and difficult process, but remember progress is progress. Look at yourself today and measure the pain from last week or last month or last year... do you see a difference?
When you are happy as an individual, you are in a better position to determine whether a partner enhances your happy life or weighs it down.
