Hello kolja,
Thank you for posting on my thread. Your sitch is far from hopeless, but it will take work. If you havent already, take the time to read as many threads on here as possible, there is a great deal of knowledge and hard won experience here that will be indispensable. Keep your ears and mind open, and you will do well. Good luck!

m 54
XW 48
m 12
t 14
bomb 6-11
s 10-11
wife moved to other state 10-21-11
d 9-12

O GOD THY SEA IS SO GREAT AND MY BOAT IS SO SMALL!