Im still here this site really does bring me relief. just to know im not alone. you guys arent holding back any punches and i appreciate it. in the last few weeks the W is still seeing the OG all the time. I went mostly dark except when it comes to the kids and money. before i went dark she was hot and cold acting like she missed me flirting some hang out for 45min or so when dropping off kids and then get cold and leave to go stay w OG. so i told her i couldnt take that. she said she felt like she couldnt let go and i said then grab a hold or im gonna have t pull you off cause i cant be 2nd or backup. my heart cant take that.. it makes me feel cheap. so she said she doesnt like the way that sounds and ask me what i thought about OG? weird huh? i told her he betrayed his friend your a smart girl. shes thinkin wow he thru away friends for me and she loves that.i told her i have zero respect for him and she says what if he does right by her and i said he already hasnt. anyways i told her im not trying to hurt her or be mean but i needed to have minimum contact w/her. thats whats been goin on now and she still trys to have conversations and i just answer with one word or if its a mean vent on me i just dont respond.i think does this when shes alone, bored, guilty, and feels better if she has or feels like she had a conversation w me.reflecting on our M i know now mistakes i made with my lack of appreciation and attention towards her.believe me i regret it but im thankfull now for learning how to behave moving forward with or without her. she says she is reading a book and now realizes she was a codependent person and established patterns that led to our marriage to be dysfunctional. but she also says our love was real and that our depth of love was always stable??she wants me t spend the nite on xmas eve for the kids. i guess i will. she got her boobs and now shes about broke. i think financial real world is starting to close in. Ok fire away guys thanks in advance. i miss her.im not a good writer sorry
