Just had a decent exchange with my W. There was nothing special about it. It certainly was nothing to draw me closer to her, and it has me heading back toward my ambivalent state of mind.
I've been asking myself recently if she doesn't want be M'd, would I be interested in dating her? The answer to that right now, is "No not really". If she started making a concerted effort to come back, it might change the picture. It's not that I'm going to start dating or pursue a D. I am going to continue to stand for my M. I will continue on working on myself to become my best possible self. IOW, I am going to continue to prepare for the next relationship, whether it's with my W or someone else. Just praying for God's will and purpose in this.
