too much time and distance

[any chance?]

Going through some interesting changes in perspective and I guess life. Increasing obvious to me that W has moved on and wants little to do with me beyond getting the papers and settlement she needs. She has been pretty disrespectful of me and several of her friends, as she is in that WAW zone where all she can see is what is important to her and her happiness.

It is amazing to me that her two closest friends now, one woman and one guy, both of whom live >3 hours from her, have both left their respective partners since my W left here 4 months ago. The grapevine suggests she is moving rapidly toward a serious relationship with this old guy friend of hers.

I guess this is starting to give some sort of closure. It crushes me that she can be so dismissive of me after so long, but I guess that is where her head is at. I see little hope in any sort of contact with her in the future, and it seems increasingly clear she is out of my life forever. I don't even think she will look back.

So I have to look forward. Booked a ticket to Las Vegas for Xmas, as I think the desert will do me some good. I need to save myself, as I can no longer hope to save or help her. Very sad, but I guess it had to happen. Time to focus on me and my future.

Thanks for listening.