Well my w and I had an Argument/Talk yesterday. Basically what I came away with is that my W is Depressed or in depression. She hates her life, her car, her home, her job. I feel so powerless to help. She doesn't realize that she needs to find happiness within her self and that no one or thing can make you happy.
I think what is contributing to this is her thyroid. But also she can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I asked her if she would like to talk to someone she said no that she wouldn't.
She did say that she didn't undersand why I hang around really with her being so mean to me. That I just put up with it. I said that I love her and want her and I to have a good R. I don't know if that will ever happen. She will have to find her light before I think that things in our R will work.
We were on the subject of sex and she said that is all I ever think about and want and that Sex is just SEX. I tried to tell her to me that it wasn't just sex. She cut me off in the conversation and didn't want to hear anymore about it.
She said she wants to go and see a MC thinks that might help but believes that nothing in our R will ever change. There she is not seeing the light anymore. I asked her If she thought that going and getting her thyroid checked and a new dosage would help with her feelings would help she said no that she feels fine.
So here I go in circles chasing my tail not wanting to leave this becuase I know that this is not what I want in this R. So I am looking into finding a MC see if maybe we can get this thing working again.
The wierd thing is that my W is very good at hiding her depression. If you do not live with her you would never know that she is this way. To the outside world she is sunny and cheerful.
