What do I do next? Part 3

[luvhurts49]

Maybe what I should have said is that I have already forgiven my W for what she has done, but we would never be able to rebuild our M unless she was willing to work on it too and meet some demands that I would have.

While I still struggle with the thoughts in my head about my W and OM, they have become less frequent, but not less painful.

Before she left, my W was the kindest, most loving person I have ever known. Only after she left did she become this seemingly hateful person who shows me little positive emotion.

She is acting like a she cares only for herself, going out whenever she wants, spending whatever she wants, and not seeming to care what others think.

I know what she spent during our first month apart, but I would hate to see how much she has spent since. I know that she has bought some things for the kids, which I understand and I can tell that she has bought herself a lot of new clothes. My W has never been real good with money by herself--I'm the only reason we even have a savings. I would hate to see how far in debt she really is.