What do I do next? Part 3

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I don't know if the OM gave her the clothes or whether she bought them herself. My gut tells me the latter.

As far as forgiveness--yes, I can forgive her. Don't get me wrong, when I found out about OM, I was bursting at the seams with anger, but through it all, I learned that I can and would forgive her if she truly wanted to work on our M. Believe me, I never would have thought that I could ever say that, but yes, I can forgive her. Trust would be a problem, but one that we could overcome as long as she was willing to meet certain demands that I would have such as no contact with OM and other such demands.

I'll tell you, it hasn't been easy even getting to this point. I have all of you to thank for being that calm voice in the storm that is my life, especially Accuray, who has seemed to take a special interest in my situation and for that, I could never repay.

I hope that this is the start to the road back, but I'm not so sure--I have my doubts. I will continue on my path and hope that my W finds her way back to me, back to that love that she used to carry in her heart. To be honest, I know I can SURVIVE without my W, but I'm not so sure that I can really LIVE without her.