AC, The feelings you are describing are the exact same ones I am feeling, exactly, popping up at all hours, trying to stay involved but being sad, etc
The symptoms you are describing are clasic ones for depression, as my IC told me this week. Are you seeing an IC? Depression brought about by traumatic events, of which D is #2 on the list of life stressors, is completely normal. It can last for a good long time, and in our case, can definately be exacerbated by other factors, like the fact that this is holiday time. She told me to give it one more month, if after that time the symptoms have not significantly lessened, it might be time to take the next step which could involve short term meds/therapy.
wow...I can't believe you are not already on them! What's up with your IC? I've never heard of someone dealing with your stuff and NOT being on something for sleep, at least.
Sheesh...maybe I know too many wimps but count me among them! I said "yes" to modern medicine so I could BE WITH my kids, avail myself of them, and work and be able to concentrate, and function. Plus, I was more upbeat for h and able to work on MY own stuff too...
Why wait so long? I just don't get it. If THIS SITUATION does not cry out for medical help, what psychological condition or event would? Just death of a spouse? Seems too harsh to me.
Sorry if I sound like I'm pushing drugs. I guess I'm saying "hey, do what you have to do and have no shame about it." SO IF you felt the need for approval, here's mine!
All is not lost!!
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