This morning I was waiting for W to get to house so I could go to work. As it got close to time I had to leave I gave her a call to see where she was. I must have just woken her up as she fumbled the phone and hung up. She called me back, said she was on her way, her alarm didn't go off, and would be here in 15-20 minutes. I said (a little anger in my voice) I am going to be late! Hurry! End of conversation.
I understand your anger. I do. But she does too. And she made a mistake and in all likelihood felt embarrassed.
Like you are the LAST person she wants to err in front of...
so that means this is a chance for YOU to show her the new you...
As she was pulling up to house I hopped in my SUV and sped off for work. So no talk at all today. I was a bit upset as I waited, but once the day got going I pretty much forgot about it. The old me would probably give her the silent treatment for a day or 2, but the new me doesn't let something like this bother me. When I see her tomorrow, I won't bring it up,
how is this different than before? I'm asking...b/c if you were rude to her when she came, then that's not new.
Also, the fact that you pretty much forgot about it means nothing to her since she is not aware of that, right? So my question remains, how is this different?
and if she does, I will tell her straight up, no worries, it happens.
Let's hope she brings it up then b/c it sounds like you won't...so I don't know how she'll see the change. Can you explain?
OR is it that it's a change you are making just for you and she doesn't have to know? I get that, but am slightly confused as to who will see or know this...
I am really feeling good about myself these days, and even with the ob and my situation I am defiantly not feeling like someone who might have depression. My new way of thinking and exercise is really helping me.
excellent...keep it up!
Tonight I am going out to eat and a minor league hockey game with a friend. Going to be first "real" time out since I quit drinking. Should be a fun night, I will prove to myself I don't need booze to have fun. Tomorrow I have church, going to try out a Methodist Church here in town this time.
Good--- but just so you know = it may not happen all at once. Most of my friends in recovery said it took them awhile to make their own endorphins again, and that they didn't laugh hard or as often as before, for a few weeks.
But now nothing in numbed for them and they are fully living and feeling alive.
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