Im Very worried for my marriage. Im seeing my W start to do those little things she did before the BOMB dropped. She seems always angry. No matter what I do it is never enough. If I do, do somthing for her I did it wrong.
The last couple of days I have been really thinking of ways That I can change to make this do able. I just don't see any.
As in today When I got up from work W asked me if I would stay home so that she could get some sleep. I said "sure I hate work anyway." So I stayed home. Took my D to school. Went and picked her up. Went to see when my W was getting out of bed this is around 4:00 PM. Asked her if she wanted to go to the Gym with me. She said she didnt know and to stop bugging her because she was tired. After 9 hrs of sleep. So I asked her if she had been taking her pills she got irritated(sp) with me and said yes she had. So I left and went to the gym when I got home at 6:30 she had finally got out of bed 12 hrs later. I didnt say anything about it to her. Thinking to myself if I had done what she just did she would have ripped me a new on. But its ok for her to do these things.
She was telling me today how she hates her body so on so forth. I said that I am sorry that I don't know exactly how she feels but I can understand it.
I am just so tired of all of this. This is not what I sighned up for when I got married. I think if she says I want a d. I would say great I will contact a lawyer tommorow type thing.
I think I will try and do a better job of validating her and talking with her about stuff. Trying to fix things just enjoy them. That is what brought her back last time maybe I just need to conentrate more on that.
I know im all over the place with this post but I don't know if I have the energy to fight this battle much longer. The other thing is I don't even know if this battle is even worth fighting anymore.
