I was going thru my "paper drawer" today looking for some stuff and found a stack of cards. I allways keep every card H ever gave me. I read them all again. They were so thoughtfull and sweet. He said how lucky he was to have me, how much he loved me, how I was such a good mother. What happened to those feelings? How could that change so suddenly? It makes me so sad. I really miss the way we used to be. I dont understand this "new" h at all. Pretty soon I'm going to have to call him my ex h. That really hurts. Everything that has happened the last 3 months was so different from who he was. Im trying to hold on to the hope that he will realize what he has lost, but I dont know if he ever will. BTW how do you go dark when there are kids are envolved? Coyote you said that it might be 2 + years before I'm in the clear w/ H. What did you mean by that?
