I know what you are saying Antonia. I've have been the one that has been approached and I say yes just to have a little fun I guess. There is nothing "romantic" about it at all. I guess if I was honest, I just miss having a female in my life. As for comparing them, it is not like I really was it was just I noticed that there is just nothing "there." That is the best I can explain it and I know I'm not doing a very good job at it. It doesn't feel "right", but it doesn't feel wrong either. I'm not seeing these women to "replace" her at all. Hell, I still want my W back very much.
It is almost 1AM here and I should be in bed but.....
UPDATE
As I was dozing off earlier, my phone rang. It was XW. I wasn't going to answer it, but I did because it was late and S17 is with her for the weekend. I wanted to make sure nothing was wrong.
She said she called "just to see how I was doing."
Ug.
We had a very good conversation for about 30-45 minutes or so. There was no ranting like usual. I did not hear what a terrible person I was or all of the things I've done wrong for the past 26 years.
She asked about my job....
my medication....
my plans....
my blood pressure....
my mom....
Then she told me about her life and her plans for S17 this weekend.
Weird.
Why does she do this to me?
Why?
I have so many more questions that I know I shouldn't ask.
...and yes, I am doing a little better, but damn it, I still love her (or the woman she was tonight.)
Tad
Currently: M 57 XW 58 Sons 39,34,32,30
The Sitch: Married 26 years EA w/ OM 9/10 Bomb 10/10 (5 weeks after 25th anniversary) Sep 12/10 She wants D 1/11 W files 5/11 D final 10/11 XW marries OM 6/13
