The Crazy Train

[labug]

Beatrice, your words are so close to what I have found with my H. I posted this on Newcomers in the form of a letter to H I would never post.

You've made the decision not to see me, not to talk face-to-face, not to talk on the phone but to communicate only through email. I understand that you're detaching from me, your version of NC. But I think there is also fear involved because in looking at me and knowing what I've dealt with in the months since you left, you would also have to look at yourself and that scares you, alot.

But here's the crux, without looking deep within, you will never change. And maybe you don't want to, perhaps you are truly happy. But I know you, and I know you are a very stubborn man who doesn't know how to back off from a position once taken. That rigidity robs you of such a deeper happiness, a happiness that I am just now beginning to experience. But we each get to choose the path we walk.