Got a shut off notice from my water company yesterday, and realized the little cash i had for xmas presents for boys will have to be used to pay that today. I will have no money for xmas now and am dreading xmas morning and waking up with boys to nothing. Its times like this that my anger toward H is hard to put aside..all i can think is im sure he and OW will have a wonderful first christmas together...so special and romantic, we are just an ugly memory he chooses not to think about H hasnt even asked anything about xmas and obviously doesnt care...

Me:48 H:42
M: 18 yrs.
S: 9/1/09 due to alcoholic H
D bomb: 9/9/11
OW confirmed 10/30/11
D papers filed 11/01/11
S15 S21(Special needs) S28

Look to yourself, It is there that all your answers are found...