Quote: I am having a very hard time keeping my heart open to all of this. Its very diffecult thinking that everytime you try and open your heart up that it will be stepped on. The more it happens the hard it is to open up again.
I am so pleased to hear that you are maintaining awareness of the need to constantly bear a loving and open heart. When I started to practice this myself, I had mine stomped on too so I know how hard it is to take.
But you know what, I fought on just like any other DB mission and after a several stompings, I learnt to take them and for the first time learnt what it was to have a loving heart. That was my biggest change in myself in this whole DB process.
I had decided that a new R with my W could not possibly ever succeed if we both shut down at times when love should prevail. It was up to me to make that decision to leave my heart open and where I am today, I will never, ever regret that decision. It will be 20 years M for us in a few weeks time. W was a serial shutter down. Now she always greets me with an open heart. Lee, it's the key to the secret.
Suit
"It's better to have no spouse than have a bad spouse"
