Well all I have found out some information. About 2 weeks ago I guess my W decided to stop taking her synthroid medication and it has throughly screwed her up. She has been sleeping 14 hrs on days I dont work and just being completely unlikeable. I will tell you all that If this keeps up with her going on and off like this with mood swings and all I really don't know if I can stay around for my own sanity.
She did send me a text message this night to tell me she was very sorry for not taking the medcine and asked if I would forgive her. I said yes. I feel much better now about what has transpired in the last month now knowing what was going on.
I'm kind of worried that I am going into the WA mode. I am having a very hard time keeping my heart open to all of this. Its very diffecult thinking that everytime you try and open your heart up that it will be stepped on. The more it happens the hard it is to open up again. So I am really fighting with that.
The scary thing is, Is that i'm really starting to lose intrest in my W sexually. It like a wall that I have just hit in the last couple of days. I have been trying to get the wonderful sex life we had back before our D was born for the last 7 yrs and now I think the battle is really starting to wear me out. So I go on but I don't know for how much longer.
When I stop to think about this it hurts but that it may come to this even with all of the hard work that I have put in for the last 11 months.
I am not ready to throw the towel in yet but I do feel that last straw coming.
