H took my son to buy me a gift

[25yearsmlc]

but in Bond's defense, out of nowhere you declare that you are "addicted" to dating sites (I never knew you were on ANY dating sites)

and then you say you "met" a nice guy who wants to take you out and has called you every night. The ONE night he does not call you, as if he's obligated to,

means he's a player and you are so afraid of getting hurt you will prevent it by preventing ANY relationship from happening.

And you don't see how sad that is? SIGH...

I think you should do whatever it takes, to get better. No offense intended, but

you seem to lack the basic skills of how to make yourself happy and

your thought process seems to generate negative feelings in you.

That means you need help. No shame in that, but get the help.